The Lord is faithful and loving. He is also just and takes care of his children but being a father He is also strict. The kingdom of God is not a place like the place we were raised, no nothing can compare with the Kingdom of God and our lifestyle has to be different in order to live in this kingdom. This is the kingdom or domain of the spirit, the place where the soul resides, that's what makes it different, it can't be seen, touched, tasted, smelled or heard, not with our five senses anyway. But there is within us a knowing, an understanding and a longing for that place where the soul can find reassurance and peace. This is the Kingdom of God, this is where we find Him, the place where He teaches us and guides us and yes, even disciplines us for our own good. I suppose it is the heart but not a physical organ more like just understanding.
Without God to guide me I would run amok, even with him in my life I still do but He always disciplines me and guides me back to him. I don't want to fight with God or be disobedient, I want to follow Him and live at peace with him but my own sinful nature drags me off in all sorts of directions and then I land up feeling depressed and worthless because I failed again.
Fortunately the Lord is long-suffering and patient and fortunately for me, a father who knows how to discipline his children in order to be able to give them the best there is for them. To be able to call on the creator of the universe and have him answer is a privilege that goes beyond comprehension, that's what makes it so hard for those who are living outside this kingdom to understand. Nothing is impossible, nothing. When you are at peace with God even your enemies are good to you. But the most incredible thing of all is that God wants us to be in his presence. Why would the maker of the universe and everything there in want to put up with someone like me? That to me is the greatest mystery but at the same time my greatest desire, to be in the presence of God, his Son and everyone else he has called.
Lord please teach me your ways and hold me close when the testing comes, my greatest desire is to please you oh Lord and should I fail the test again please be patient.
Bless you Lord, from my heart to your's, Geoff.