I heard today that no one seems to care for you, it's written in your eyes you think that life's unfair to you. These are the words of a song I heard yesterday when I was about ready to give up, not only on myself but on blogging too. They go on to sat that God only knows how much your heart can bear, and to give it all you've got and not to give up.
It amazes me how God speaks to me at the times when I really need his wisdom. Life's not over and even though I have started feeling unloved and alone he comes to me and says " You are my servant and I have chosen you so don't give up, just keep serving me. I love you and have chosen you."
One of the things that I've noticed is all those people who gave me such a hard time are now coming to me to pray for them and even this internet problem that I have will go away some day if I just keep on going.
I must tell you that in order for me to write a post I have to rewrite it about 5 or 6 times before I can at least get it saved. I keep on losing my connection to my isp.
Is it just me or do you also have times in your life when things just get the better of you?
I'm going to publish this post now before I get cut off again. This is becoming very demoralizing.
But before I go though I would like to say that not everything is against me. My daughter is here from Johannesburg (about 1000 miles away) and had her birthday yesterday so we got together and that was great. James, my son, leaves in a few weeks for mount Kilimanjaro and that is worth looking forward to so not all is bad. Well God bless you all my friends and hopefully I will be able to get this thing fixed soon.
The owners of the farm have just arrived so I must go. All my love, Geoff.